We pray that you would know Him and trust in Him at an early age. We don't want you to miss a moment of the love we walk in every day.
Esther Grace May we LOVE you!!!!
These last ten months (going on 11) with Esther have been the best. We have laughed and cried with her and we have been greatly overjoyed to serve and care for her (it helps when you have wonderful friends and family who help as well).
Two Saturday's ago we found out we were expecting another one of these little joys to our lives. We were thrilled. Thoughts of what life would soon be like were storing up in our hearts and we patiently began the wait of what we thought would be the rest of our lives.
Three days later, early Tuesday morning we awoke to the reality of what we would would soon walk through instead. The pain and grief of miscarrying the sweet baby who's toes and smile we had already began to envision. We were crushed.
Over the course of the next couple days we would spend time with friends whom the Lord had intentionally placed around us. They would pray and encourage and speak truth, God's word and His promises over us.
As quickly as it came and went we were now beginning the process of healing.
As I sit here I find it hard to remember or recall the ways I had already loved that little baby. It feels like a dream, a distant fear I once experienced. Anything but reality.
I find it hard to remember and I am constantly reminding myself that I was pregnant, and I did have the precious blessing and great joy to carry a baby whom I did not fully know yet for four weeks and I praise the Lord for His gift to us. We delight in that sweet baby.
I miss carrying and already caring for that tiny little blessing. I miss what I thought life would soon be. I miss you little baby. I long to meet you one day, not here, but there. You are loved by our King.
As we have spent this last week processing we have been reminded of the great joy and gift of life we have in Esther. She is a sweet reminder of God's faithfulness. May we never forget that. We have grown more aware of her and everything that makes Esther, Esther. She is terrific.
She has helped to process what we feel. That sweet baby we have not met yet was a real life. Esther was once so small. She is now ten months later a bundle of rolls, giggles and innocence. We will never see what that sweet baby would have grown to be. But we can look at Esther and remember that the bundle of joy who once resided in my tummy was a life and that life now lives with our King.
Here are some pictures we thought we would share from a time of great joy.
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